No preparationĀ 

No one could have prepared me for this. 

How are you doing it? Because I need help, no more than help. I need a flippin’ miracle. 

I am talking about preparing for Pre-school. Or any school- or taking your sweet baby somewhere new and actually leaving them there….. Like WT*<+#%. 

I cannot wrap my head around the concept of dropping my sweet piece of perfection off at a public place and then leaving, like physically leaving her there. 

There is no way I will be able to drive away.

I have put every single thought, element, muscle and action into protecting my loves every day of their life and now it’s a game changer. 

I recently was told to start looking into programs for Elle since she will be 4 in November…. Little did I know I should have started this process like a year ago. Again, who is suppose to prepare me for this?

So I have started the search and woah it’s a toughy….. Actually near impossible. 

The first place I visited I was so beside myself that my mind actually went blank that when the cordinator asked me Elle’s birthday….. I couldn’t even answer that question correctly…. I randomly said August. ??? WRONG ABBY… November 1. That was before I tripped over steps. 

Needless to say I need advice/ help/ guiadance/ prayers about this. 

I didn’t go to pre-school and I don’t really have many people I know that are going through this process in life. 

Since visiting yesterday my mind has been going 1000000 miles a minute.

Here are a list of thoughts and questions that I can’t get out of my head…. Maybe you can relate 

1. Male teacher vs. female teacher 

2. And if it is a male teacher… How do you help my 3 yr. old little girl to the bathroom?? (Not happening) 

3. The only people to have ever watch my babies are either grandparents or sisters…. So how would I leave her with a stranger ?? 

4. Is it really good for her? 

5. How are others treating her? But how is she treating others? 

6. Is it going to change her? For the bad? Or maybe the good? 

7. What if someone breaks in and takes them? 

8. How old is the food there? Or how often are things cleaned? Or wait, do I pack their lunch ? 

9. Why is there even pre- school ? 

10. Why are we concerned with being “social” when they are 36 months old?? 

11. Who thought of these social norms? 

12. Is it wrong to “want to “keep them Sheltered and out of the way of harm and the bad things in life? 

Some of my thoughts are ridiculous and I know that…… But …. I’m her protector. 

How come no one prepared me for this? 

Lord give me peace and strength to make the right and best decision for My children.  



Chandler Marie – 11 months

This is 11 months. This girl has so much spunk.

She’s busy, loves to dance, yell, crawl, stand and climb. She knows what she wants and will let you know all about it. She’s either super friendly or super sensitive depending on the time of day.  

We love our Chandler Marie so much and are forever thankful she’s ours.


Weight/Height: 23lbs 

Hair/Eyes: Blondish hair coming in more and more every day! Loving pony tail life šŸ™‚

 hazel eyes with a brown ring in the middle.

Diapers: Honest size 5s.

Clothes: 24 months, some 2 T.

Eating: Nursing 4 times  day, 1-2 at night. Breakfast is usually scrambled eggs and toast ( her favorite) . Lunch and dinner are Chandler’s biggest/ messiest meals of the day! Chicken,turkey, Greek yogurt, any pasta, cheese, green beans, black beans, avocado, clementines,watermelon, blackberries,  quesadillas, yogurt popsicles: just to name a few of her favorites! This girl knows how to eat and likes to make a mess doing it :)She’s great about using her sign language to let us know she wants more or is all done, but if you aren’t paying attention she’ll make sure to throw the food or her spoon on the ground to get noticed. 

Teeth: 8!

Sleeping: This month sleep has been MUCH better!  Daddy started going in and soothing her and laying her back down each time she would wake up and it only took a few days for her to start putting herself back to sleep and sleeping in longer stretches! Finally we are getting some rest around here. She usually sleeps from 7pm- 1am and then eats then back to bed until 3-4ish ( need to work on this one) and up for good at 7am. She takes two naps usually an hour long around 10 and 2:30. She won’t take a pacifier anymore but is just content with being rocked to sleep especially if i sing ” twinkle twinkle” .

Favorites: Climbing on all things, stairs, mommy, Cannon, being tickled, giving kisses, saying ” bye bye” and waving, blowing kisses, dancing, bath time, splashing, throwing all toys, chewing on everything, picking up ANYTHING on the ground to put in mouth, touch and feel books, singning,  eating, mimicking animal noises.